Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Finding a Home ... and Finding Faith


Today I spent walking around Squirrel Hill where supposedly our new life will be for this upcoming year. Yesterday, I visited the Jewish Community Center, where Ivry will be registered in the early childhood program. Today I visited four apartments -two which were on my unfavorable list. One with a lot of pre-world war two charm (not price), the other - a bit steep but fits the locality like the other.


All this is very good considering for the time being that we are still in Westbeth, NYC. We don't pay rent, or food. We are in a comfort zone. There is no decision yet to be made. But yikes! Here we come. We are slowly getting out of a comfort zone, beginning anew. Again. The thought of it is rather scary.


We like and miss our niches, our quiet, our lifestyles on the kibbutz back home.


Luckily, Squirrel Hill is full of good people, which is one of the reasons why we chose it. A nice rabbi hooked me up with a host family for two nights, who are originally from Mexico and they speak Hebrew!


I spent the first hour crying in front of Ivry's new teacher, in front of the early childhood director, in front of this host family and today again in front of the career development lady. But with her, the tears were smaller.


Today, I spent a good part of the humid day walking around knowing the streets. I know where Barlett street is in relation to Murray street and a few others. That's an accomplishment. I was also able to visit the Jewish Family Services , which helps new immigrants like Haim and me as well, and gives him a push to find a job while helps market him to find a job.


I'm still scared, but not half so much as yesterday. As Elan my brother would say in Hebrew: "Katan Elayich, it's not such a big deal!" For for me, it IS a big deal. But that does not change anything. I'm still scared.
I especially have to shovel out all my fear and muster up faith to know we can succeed and begin again... this time on the other side of the ocean.
And then there is the moment of here and now that says, "yes, I can do it, no problem."




4 comments:

G's Cottage said...

Dorit,
I know the US is your original home but you will have a lot of homesickness and culture-shock. I also sense you are rushing to find normalcy for yourself and Haim but especially for Ivry. That is very natural and it is very stressful. Try to make a space to listen to your own breathing in these frantic days and weeks to come.
Blessings, d

Pieces of Me said...

Thank you G's Cottage for visiting. That was lovely.

Robin said...

I agree with G. Be gentle with yourself, and give it time.

Pittsburgh's got some really lovely people - I've had some wonderful friends from the area (not Jewish) and my sister-in-law just married a guy from PGH two weeks ago :-).

Scribbit said...

If that is the picture of your new home it's really beautiful. I love the setting and the exterior textures.